| Forgive me, I dont give a fuck in real life, yet im terribly dramatic behind a keyboard. |
[Apr. 18th, 2007|07:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | Current Emo State |
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| [ | Flailing My Limbs To |
| | Radiohead - How to dissapear Completely | ] |
Well, looks like this is it.
I think i started this when i was in 10th grade. 5 years is a while.
but, such as life, all good things must come to an end. Almost at 21, i have decided that this is over.
goodbye, LJ.
As odd and trivial as it sounds, LJ has been a integral part in documenting everything thats happened to me in the past 5 years. I personally can see how ive changed and how ive stayed the same. I see all my different frames of mind and how i dealt with each issue, most of them poorly. Being frank, this reminds me too much of my the really bad parts of my past, and at the same time reminds me of people that I crushed on hard, deeply loved, and some of the strongest built friendships ive ever had.
rather than talking about the past in this last post though, id rather focus on the future.
http://www.Able-danger.com will get an official launch with new mixes and tracks as early as Sept 2007.
I truely think that my group Able Danger will be signed to atleast 1 DNB label by the end of the year.
Considering the connections ive made thus far, I hope and expect that i will get the internship to Grand Hustle in the summer of 08.
I want to not be addicted to anything anymore.
I want to go on tour in Europe and Asia by the time im 26.
I want my family to be stronger.
I never want to think of suicide again.
I want to know what falling in love feels like again.
I want to move to california by the time im 35.
I want to push DNB to the forfront of the music industry.
I Want to be with someone that feels the same way that i do about them.
I want to be proud of myself for the right reasons.
I want a Daughter that i can constantly spoil.
I want to meet up with Greg again some fine day and go riding. You are still missed. D4W4L.
I want to be envolved in good music for the rest of my life.
of course, im obviously still on myspace and you can reach me through Able Danger's website shortly. If you are reading this though, then you definately had a major role in my life since i probably grew up with you, More than you really know. At the same time, we probobly dont talk that much anymore. Perhaps we never will again. Just know that you once knew someone who is actually trying to make an impact and change a small piece of the world. Fail or succeed, i am trying. i challenge you to do the same with your life.
When i was younger, i always had random quotes in my LJ posts. In closing, I can think of no better way to end such a chapter in my life than with a medium in which it started, and with something that has had and is still having a major impact on my life. Hopefully it can motivate you the same way it did me.
"Big Brother isn't watching.
He's singing and dancing.
He's pulling rabbits out of a hat.
Big Brother's busy holding your attention every moment you're awake. He's making sure you're always distracted.
He's making sure you're fully absorbed.
He's making sure your imagination withers.
Untill it's as useful as your appendix.
He's making sure your attention is always filled.
And this being fed, it's worse that being watched.
With the world always filling you, no one has to worry about what's in your mind.
With everyone's imagination atrophied, no one will ever be a threat to the world."
- Chuck Palahniuk
Thanks for the memories.
-Ben |
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| Things Done Changed |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|02:19 am] |
i use to be a huuuuge republican. i despised the ACLU and everything. i even voted for bush the 2nd time.
i would also like to note that i hold the Regan administration almost fully responsible for the Crack Epidemic on the West Coast. Seriously. |
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| Peace Out, ATL. |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|03:09 am] |
| [ | Flailing My Limbs To |
| | Deftones - "Xerces" | ] |
its been fun.
Im moving to Nashville friday morning to attend SAE to get my recording arts degree. im extremely reluctant on leaving seeing as im totally confortable amongst my friends and family and i feel that im at a good place in my life. im sure ill get use to it up there, but i feel like im leaving behind so much. im hopeful that this will teach me alot about moving on, which is a subject that i could use alot of help on.
im sorry if i didnt get to see alot of yall before the move, but october has been crazy hectic for me. i just got done moving and now i have to move again.
if any of you ever find yourself in Nashville, youll always have a place to stay. My Number wont be changing, so give me a call every now and then, i'll definately be glad to hear a familiar voice. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2006|02:04 am] |
Heres a quick lil sumthin sumthin I did to feed your ipod with. i made it with the idea that it might get some people into dnb that havent heard alot of it before. hopefully in the next couple weeks i will put out something a little more deep & soulfull, so look out for that if that happens to be your thing.
my last show before i go to tennessee will be the thursday after next (the 4th or 5th) at the Mark Ultralounge. Im headlining it from 11:30 - 1:00 so you should totally go if you havent before. oh, its free with 4$ mixed drinks.
Nothing close to legendary, but hopefully some of you will enjoy it.
DZK - Trap Music
01. Spirit - Siren (Hive Remix) - Innerground
>>> Spor - Powder Monkey - Subtitles
02. Kryptic Minds & Leon Switch - More Like You (unknown error remix)- Defcom Recordings
03. Gridlok & Dom - Hooked (Dieselboy & Technical Itch Remix) - Project 51
04. Ewun - Hate Machine (Spor Remix) - Barcode
05. Infiltrata & Hochi ft. Mental Sharp - Hit em Hard - TEKDBZ
06. Demo - Ready For War - Barcode
07. Vicious Circle VS Lil Scrappy - Between the Gangsta (Charlie P Mashup) - N/A
08. Styles of Beyond - Subculture (Upbeats Remix) - Human Imprint
09. Noisia & Black Sun Empire - Winter War - oBSEssions
10. Audio - No Soul - Habit
11. Noisia - Concussion - Vision Recordings
12. Psidream - Ready To Roll - Forthcoming on Shadow Law Recordings
13. Quadrant - My Beautiful Liar - Renegade Hardware
14. Evol Intent VS Corrupt Souls - Filthbath - Renegade Hardware
15. Counterstrike & GenR8 - Grey Matter - Forthcoming on Evol Intent Recordings
16. Counterstrike - Gateway - Barcode
17. Ewun - The Divide - Evol Intent Recordings
18. Evol Intent & Ewun - The Rapture - Human Imprint
|192kbps|65:46|
download here (right click, save as)
Much love to Mayhem, Knick from Evol Intent and Charlie P from ALR/Random Rabbit for hooking it up with some dope tracks =D |
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[Jul. 17th, 2006|02:46 pm] |
im moving to tennessee in exactly 2 & 1/2 months.
yet im still undecided about looking back. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|02:56 am] |
if you know anything about good music, this will blow you away.
herbie hancock, buckethead, bill laswell, & parlament funkadelic among others are collaborating with a bunch of DNB producers and are releasing an LP.
full tracklisting ( here. )
also, incase you are wondering, here is a glimpse into what will happen in the US within the next 10 years.
Dylan & Counterstrike Video Live @ Therapy in Russia |
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[May. 28th, 2006|04:50 am] |
tonight has been nothing but constantly aweful news. i dont want to even look at my phone.
i really dont need to be alone right now. |
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[May. 9th, 2006|11:13 pm] |
i swear ill eventually post something that isnt some shameless self-promotion.
but for now...
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| ruh roh... |
[Apr. 24th, 2006|09:21 pm] |
| [ | Current Emo State |
| |  NY State of Mind | ] |
My Trumphant return to Transit:
404Audio.com, SLR, and The Mark Ultra Lounge present_
TRANSIT
Drum + Bass Music
Thursday May 25th 2006:
PHACE [SUBTITLES / SLR / RENEGADE HARDWARE - Cologne, DE]
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DECO
IDEAL
Hosted by:
MC RACE ONE
Guys: 10$
Ladies: FREE
Age: 21+
Hours: 10PM-3AM
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79 Poplar St / Atlanta GA / 30303
phone: 678.904.0050
web: http://www.themarkatlanta.com
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Add us on MySpace HERE |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2006|03:09 pm] |
some of you know that i was getting like 2-3 hours of sleep (if that) every night since february, and i couldnt figure out why.
since 4/20, ive been waking up around noon with like 9 hours of sleep, and its great. you have no idea.
also, birthday plans are as follows:
Friday (April 28th: Planet Of The Drums @ Earthlink live (Dieselboy, AK1200, Dara & MC Messinian on 6 turntables). im not driving.
Tuesday: Box Seats at Braves VS Rockies.
Friday (may 5th, my birthday): Back To The Future @ 20Live, and then doing something before, not sure yet.
Saturday(May 6th): Big Big Big party at Justins off of Bells Ferry & 575. tell your friends to tell your friends, we're going to throw it down like its 2002.
call me about any of this, i wanna party with as many of you as i can before i move. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|10:05 pm] |
chuuuch.
yes, i still say it. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|02:46 pm] |
i got my braces off yesterday.
now i feel like God's gift to women. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2006|05:14 pm] |
anyone need a roommate before march 1st?
because we just got evicted for noise. |
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